fragment of memories-

2006-10-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

alright,i have ot been updating my blog for ages.
so better have something put up in there.
let start it on september,where my ATC camp starts..

it was rainy day on the first day
after my school dismissal, went home and take my camping bag out to meet chee chao uder my block,
we to went to buy some our camping items at the mama shop below my block,
then met up wit raphael and karseng at school,then it was baffling
that we missed our bus to pulau ubin!!
lucky,mr tn was there,he oso miss the bus as he was gg to picked up tose camper who
went to OBS.
then after we boarded the bus,we talk all the way to changi there to ta our ride to pulau ubin.
on the way,we talk bout challenging who was the first one to spot chio bu.
after we reached pulau ubin,it took us a 30 min walk to our camp site.it was tiring.
then,we hv to assemle at the hall with other school campers
there are around six schools joining this year ATC camp.
we went searching,then i and raphael spotted a girl call qiupeng.
she not that chio but cute la,then following up was wenyan and elis they all.
haha.
overall,the irst was boring,cus it all about introducing bout yourself thingy.
during the second day,it was tiring cus it all bout activities like high elements,jungle-trekking & etc.
but the high elements,it was higher that the sec three camp,i love the commando cross as a few ppl can passed tht,i and puvan loved it la.lol.
the on the nite,was the camp fire,it was fun.
then the last day,we hv to cleaned the whole camp site,damn tiring,but i all the while was eating snakes.lol.
then finally we reachd singapore,i missed singapore's water and the air,cus cus pulau ubins' there suck.
i went home ,ordered two canadian pizza.
afetr eating,i from 5pm sleep til tml 5am.nv went to sch.
(after this camp,i hv to thank the ATC camps' CI and karseng as he entertained us in the tent throughout the nite.)

24TH OF OCTOBER

it was hari raya.no sch,yaye!
i and qiupeng went to marina there to hv fun.
mostly use our money to buy food to eat,greedy us.
we shared venezia ice ceam,we buy the biggest cup.
alot of things happened la.lol.

25TH OF OCTOBER

school day.sian.
after everyone know whether themselves poromoted or drop.
they still the same three bernini.life still goes on..
sad luh.

26TH OF OCTOBER

went to jp to apply for work with her.

27TH OF OCTOBER

went tuition(stupid)

28TH OF OCTOBER

morning went to segar to play against west spring bball team.
they totalled up of 30plus ppl.we only seven idiots.
yet they still loss to us.119-78.
a bunch of noobies.

2006-09-07T19:40:00.000+08:00

today went meet up with my cousin,KY at 2.30pm
at control room at cck.
we went to town for walk walk.
then bought two ticket of the little man at 9.20pm
after walking for hours,we went to marina south for steamboating at 6.30.
after a huge battle with the food thre,we finished at 8.30.
returning back to town at 9pm.
went walking..until 9.10pm.

we order a seafood pizza at the coke red louge.
then proceed to the room nine.
the show was nice at the beginning as the actor change the song "candy shop" to "butchery"..wahahaha.
we watch while we eat the pizza,cool eh.
we went home at 12.home sweet home.

2006-08-27T14:08:00.000+08:00

saturday,August 26,2006
i went out at four for tuition.
reached blk 214 at 6.10.
we formed a team and play against others like dunearn and ccks.
after not playing bball for three months.hands and legs are weak.
but not bad,my form coming back.
me & wei zhong went for some blockings.
with Hs & alvin for some fast breaks.
went to lot one for dinner.
while eating,i keep taunting Wz,he such a baby.
after that,we went lighting cigg,just becos,i was stressed.
then,we went home.

i had a tiff with my sis.
it angered both of us.
everyone pull us away.
she just a tyrant.

i used to be so reckless.living everyday like it was my last.now,i had four ppl paying their attention on everything i do.i was serious.at the end of the day,i look into the mirror and say to myself that this is what i am now.i am what i am

2006-08-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

met him at control station room.
went to lot one "s k pool.
play til 12am.
mac eat.
then play til 2am.
went home by takin cab.
play com til 4pm.

2006-08-08T09:01:00.000+08:00

it was sunday.
planned to wake up early to go to a restaurant for buffet.
11am,i woke up by my pop.
everything was ready,then we went to a restaurant call sakura above a hill for makan.
we reach thre by 11.35.thre were my whole fmaily,ard25+.
the reatuarant was cool,designed like a mansion.
it has a spiral staircase.thre were many types of cuisines..
we then begun our eating at the first floor.
there were mussels and oysters,i took three of each.
then went to the grilling part,where chefs grill food lke satay,japanese fish,
chicken..
i ordered mutton satays,then two ja[anese small fishes,lol.
then i ordered a soup where it is unique,it bowl that contain the soup sort like a fliter paper and thre is fire burnin the paper yet the paper doesnt get burn,lol.
me and my cousin,kwan yong went to the second floor.
thre is italian,western and japanese cuisine
we ordered each kind of the pizza,oredered,a lamb,three beef,one dory steak.
then we took some sushi and some japanese raw fishes.
it took us to eat them all for 2hr plus.
we then went to the ice cream fridge to take our scoops of ice creams.
after that,we went to marina square.
we went shopping,while our aunties(30s+)are shopping.
kwan yong,me and my brother ,we went play billiard and pool.
it located beside the golden village cinema.
then we went home after that.
i did hv a enjoyable day with my whole family.

2006-07-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

2006-07-01T14:00:00.000+08:00

school has been reopened since monday yte i haven been updatin my blog~
-.-
days of mine are fine.
ytd went to watch world cup quarter finals
Germany Vs Argentina
heard argentina could put aimar down the match
but they din =(
then,ayala,being old,could get a header for a goal in a corner kick
in 49 mins
then..germany topscorer,klose get match even by a heading in 80 mins.
i watched the game almost went dozing..
zzz.
then pay my fullest attention on the penalty shootout.
germany won,4-2.
argentina has no confidence in that.
went home,bathed,slp.
later hv to go for my tuition.
then come back tw to hv steamboat.
then go to mohammad sultan to chill.lol.
watch WC.
argghhh~hopin tuesday comes as fast it could.
cant wait to get my specs ready.

I don’t have the guts to miss you You don’t have the heart to see me Tell me where can I go As long as I appear Only scared that it’s inconvenient for you Also made you lose face You are my secret I am your trash It’s no loss if I am absent Tonight it’s your birthday Wishing me to have this day Quickly disappear from earth

Tears are still left to the sky to be soothed You are the ex Why listen to me bark If I don’t leave Have this life Don’t have next life Do you want me To make this cursed oath? Rather lose my love than be impolite Can it be I have to cry my heart out to you? Even if it’s unfair I have to let it go This kind of life of mine What right do I have To be a waste of space?

I’m not familiar enough with you The tears are a bit more impure I don’t have the temperament to cry to you I don’t mind being alone It’s more comfortable than loving you Just take leaving as a blessing Even if it’s unfair I have to let it go I’m not scared of despising myself If I have self-respect I am only scared Scared of being a waste of space.

2006-06-20T12:17:00.000+08:00

school gg to reopen soon
arhhhh!!!
thru everynite,i almost slept at 5 or 6.30am
but i was contented,could meet new friends.
all i know now..
com,homework,with friends,sm*ke,slept late was my daily routine.

2006-06-11T12:29:00.000+08:00

woke up in the afternoon at 12pm by raphael's call
meet him at the photo shop below my hse to laminate his photos
then took bus to lot one.
have my chemistry homework done in mac.
we hv our milkshakes at thre too,a chocolatre for me and strawberry for him!
hv our break at seven eleven ,brought combo three for each other.
then talk at the alley beside lot one.

then we went home.
i went to my ah ma hse.
went talking with my onli big cousin.
then planned to go pub.
at 9.30 went to mohammad sultan thre to went clubbing.
watch abit of england vs paraguay then hv our dinner at one of the luxurious bars.
we went taking off our shoes beofre entering the japanese room.
we eat while we watch.
a big projector infront of our table.
we watch sweden vs trinidad&tobago
brother went "tobacco,tobacco,tobacco."
then watched argentina vs ivory coast.
argentibna my fav.
got saviola,messi,ayala,sorin,alot arh!!
lol.
then we went to malaysia.
to hv our supper.
then went home very late,counted as the next morning.
tme gg to raffles hotel.
six star one hor..
lol.gonna meet my cousin agn.
=)

SENTOSA TODAE!!

2006-06-02T00:20:00.000+08:00

yaye! todae was the day we went to sentosa!!

planned to woke up at 8am,buttt i woke up at 9am.
chee chao called me,told me that went gg to sentosa.
i was like -.-
cus i woke up lateee!!!
met each other at 10.20 under yong wei hse.
we went up and down his block to take his volley ball.
best thing was,he lost his volley ball long time ago.
went to market to buy tibits and drinks.
and went to guardian to buy our suntan lotion.

took MRT to harbourfront.
and walk all the way to harbourfront mall.
walk thre ate yoshinoya.
initially wanted to walk all the way to sentosa but we all lost.
thru the way,yw do something that dumb evryone and laughed.
finally got our way to the bus interchange and took our bus to sentosa!!
woot~(some stupid things happened in the MRT,making me paiseh while gg out with them.)

first thing alighted was to pay the admission fee
second,light the cigarettes.
we walk our way to siloso beach.
we went huff puff!
panting.
then light the cigarettes agn.
then went swimming!!
we play alot of childish things
like..taking out our boardshorts,UNDERWEAR!
and hv a stupid war against cheechao.
throwing sands.
so pain,okae?

watching babes and couple sitting together watching the sunset.
i abit of sad..
went to one of the bar and hv a slow bath
(some thing hanky panky happened agn.)
making a mess out of the bathroom.

we three buddies watched the sunset together(so romantic)
then went to take the bus back home
(best thing was..we forget to suntan..)
i was like -.-

we hv our dinner at the kopitiam
above the harbourfront.
had a chicken chop rice and a big big biggg coconut
we then went to shop harbourfront mall.
saw the patella sleeve
i need it so much cus i had a ligament injury near my knee cap sooo..
i need it!!
but cause alot of bucks.
saw the price i was like,ohmy.
(but i can buy it then i felt like wasting money.)

went taking MRT back to cck.
(something stupid happened agn,making me loss face gg out with them)
in the MRT.
bought a iced nescafe drink at 7-eleven at lot one.
smoke while gg back home.
suddenly..
i felt i was dying..
head went dizzy.
i think drained all my energy todae.

went home finally.

SAW HER ONLINE,I WAS HYPER HIGH.
talk to her,i was lil'bit sad though.
duno wad am i doing.
hais-
i got alot of things to tell you,but i cant talk.
seem like my heart went aching see-ing your pm.
when will it stops?

tml maybe staying at home bah.
listening to "geek in the pink" makes me high a lil.

WFY
i will..make it no matter what happens.

trashtalking since met ChongCheeChao.

2006-05-30T19:38:00.000+08:00

2006-05-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

mister aidil lesson starts at 10.30;
i woke up at 10.15,i was like OHMYGOD.
quickly went for my lala bathing and went wearin my uniform veh veh fast
10.32,i came out of my house,went straight to school,at 10.41.
but saw ser jie relax relax came out of the school and said to me
"todae,aidil nv come school"i was like -.-
after talking with ser jie,i went to bball court to check out my juniors,
saw wen cheng,i was happy like hell.
went talking with him bout ten mins,i was gg to in charge of the "C" boys for week three.
i was like -.-
(i play bball veh lousy still ask me to..)
meet up with chee chao,yong wei and karseng at school.
went keat hong to buy something.
then went to blk 214 play bball.
play bball at CC,shooting nv felt so strong before.
then play bball at blk 154.
i admit i veh powerful than chee chao.(bball skills)
LOL.
kidding.

gg to save some money to sentosa at thursday.
wish that day not gonna rain.
PLS!!
then we can show off our dyed hairs at thre.
lol.

i so missing her

trash talkings since i met chee chao.

2006-05-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

today went dye-ing with my buddies
first of all
went to keat hong with karseng to buy cigarettes
we bought a strawberry packet
then SHARE!!
we hv our talking session and our smokin below blk one
then proceed to lot one with CC ,yong wei and karseng
the dumb dumb winnie flew my kite.
told me she will join in to dye her hair but in the end
she said she doing it at home
i was -.-
went dye-ing our hair at ks hse
we went crazyyyyyy!!!
lol,shake some bums while helping in the dye-ing
in the end,yong wei hair shows no result but karseng hv the most colour
tml gg to adil lesson,i wearing the levi's shoes to school
then went to bball court to see the trng.
i gonna slp,now.haha.

2006-05-29T10:17:00.000+08:00

after talking with her
i finally know how real is the world
reality changes.
once you did something wrong
it hard to redeem yourself.
you find it hard to save yourself
for the girl that you hurt.
when you wanna atone for what you did,
it hard too.
hard to make deep changes for her to see.
when you do something that you nv mean it
but in the eye of others;ppl meant what you did.
they may not think what you doing but think of misdeeds you hv done.
i hv not given chances to atone myself.
but in her eyes,chances given are enough.
she gone.
gone.
gone as reality change.
i truely admit i still want to prove to her,that i still love her.
but..
she ignores.
for over years,i always give her the best.
but little do i know that those little bad things i accidentaly do
cause her to forget thing i hv done for her but only let her think of those bad stuff i hv done.

you know HOW much pain i hv to suffer??
see-ing she with my best friend together
see-ing how they lovable are
see-ing how they promise each other how their love are durable against time.
see-ing her blog everday wrote almost bout him.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
why do i hv to clean the aftermath of what i hv done?
suffer.
in sucha way that it was long term.
maybe i ust anyhow write..
dun understand what i wrote.
but the pain still stay with my heart.
nv it will ease.

2006-05-28T14:05:00.000+08:00

我只能永遠讀著對白　讀著我給妳的傷害
我原諒不了我　就請妳當作我已不在
我睜開雙眼　看著空白　忘記妳對我的期待
讀完了依賴　我很快就離開

i really gone-life hv to go on-even though i not thre-my heart still for you
not knowing of what i say-my sis said-"it all fated"-sadded-
hais-

2006-05-28T13:30:00.000+08:00

brother finally came back;
brought alot of things for me.
while,some of my friends gg overseas
hais-
WHEN I GONNA RECOVER FROM HER TORTURE?!?

26 of may;last day of school
everyone was happy.
i was stressed.
27 of may;the day i went smokoing alone
i was happy,
happy that i can destress.
28 of may; i was alone agn.
listening to "gei qian" repeatedly
getting know of the lyrics
i know that the song was totally describing bout how i hurt you
"after knowing i hurt you alot of times;i cannot forgive myself"
"so..pls forget me,i just can only look into spaces"
"forget of what you want (the love) from me"

maybe gg to out to marina and orchard to interview for my job
thursday might go sentosa with my friend
SUN-TANNNING!!
GG TO BE HUNK!!
haha.

tml,part of my life is gone,only hv to wait five days after then it come back.
hais-(cant write anymore)
sadded.went gnikoms.

2006-05-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

no shooling todae;
went to s'pore naval base at tuas thre.
thght of bringing the lighter into the base but scare of kana got caught, put the lighter on the grass patch in the corner of the entrance
after being briefed by the LTA jeff and some video clips of the force of
naval base at the auditorium;
went to visit a petrol ship
went seasick-ing!!
dizzy while the ship was coming up and downnn..

after the visit to the naval base;
went being a ref in the games week
went beeping here and there.
i had a secret,
whenever i meet up with semi-finals onward
i asked someone to replace my position
afraid of being a lousy ref
i am a "kayu" ref!! hahaha!! =x
after the matches
went to get some thing from my friend then meet up with wz,raph & my friend of bernini.
played a two vs two;me&raph,zhiyuan&wz.
a tough one,played abit rough cus of poor defence
sorry alr,wz!
=p
one funny thing was,IT WAS 9-O!!
i quickly chase the point;from 9-0 to 9-6
but in the end;it was 11-6
this proves me that my bernini's players was better than before
i have no doubt of my team anymore

17 MORE DAYS TO THE ARRIVAL OF MY FATHER,BRO,SIS-IN-LAW&AHMA.
FROM SHANGHAI!!YAYE!!!!
hope my korkor buy something for my sis and me!! ahaha!! =x
maybe end of this year,i gg to australia for weeks.woot!

tml is thursday;no games week.i not gg to school!yaye!!
if thre is;call me,i will be coming to school in the afternoon.
nth to do now,idiot dereck keep playing my gb acc
hoping level up asap,cus my GP is near to it brim,lol.
tml maybe meeting wenhui in the afternoon.

I GONNA BE STRONG THIS DAYS.

2006-05-20T13:34:00.000+08:00

went town with my close buddy,raph
then hor..
met hakim,ain and ..huang.
then we took mrt together
then i was like embarrassing supergirl and duno why i shouted veh loud at her then all the uncles and aunties was petrified all looking at me
LOL then.
finally reached town alr
we went separate ways,
they went shaw house
and we went ceneleisure
we making funny sounds like
"lililiidooo!!"
lol,cus zoe keep saying she was at lido.
and raph duno where is lido.
LOL then.
then saw wendy they all at ceneleisure
after that,we went shopping!!
i was bout to buy a flesh imp t-shirt but their design this month was not suitin me at all.
rapg bought a stripes t-shirt.
then went went flash & splash and bought
a slipper,i was like -.-
cus the design i want hv no size.
then went wisma then hv.
LOL then.
ard four,
we went finding zoe they all.
we went bugis,
while waiting for mrt to come,
i keep bullying the small hakim and zoe.
then in the mrt,was so crowded that one ppl farts,
may cause confusion int he mrt
reached bugis
they ditched us.
while me & raph were buying the chicken stay at bugis food court thre.
bout 6,we went back to town for our dinner.
went yuki yaki
went beef-ing and chicken-ing
then hv our rum raisin ice cream!!

ard ten,we waiting for the sickening bus
for 30 mins.
four buses came and was overcrowded.
then suddenly i not feeling well .
we ceneleisure to hv my nature calls.
LAO SAI!
may eat too much lao chang kee in the afternoon,
nine pcs of fish,prawn and crab nuggets
plus lots of chilies sauce

then finnalllllllyy
we boarded the bus
saw my primary school best friend,zayar
i looves his life
a comfortable life
with his gf for three years while his gf this year was at poly while he still at secondary school.
then he alight at bukit panjang thre.
while i alight at CC,
raph alone took 307 home.

slpt at 2.30am.
watch a stupid show before slp.
woke up at 11.30.
now gg to fetch my dog at my sis house,jurong

maybe gg out with her later at four cus i stil hv alot of money!!
lol.
=x
then meet up with my three close buddy at yongwei's house
now,went tidy up myself before gg out now.

2006-05-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

went thumbs up programme today
so fun alr.
but reach school,i felt something
something that stop me to stop my interest in everything.
hais-
but after the programme,i found that i quite a high "C" person.
lol.
more amazing is,what "C" have,i have too.
but i oso quite "I"..haha..active.

went to play bball at blk 154 thre.
with my buddy,wz,raph,dereck,ks,alvin and CC.
then ,met jerald thre too.
haha.
just a "hello"
then through half way,we went crazy!
all went beat dereck up.
then,raph duno do what,one punch cus derck the blackie to cried on the floor.
flexing muscles too.
haha,went laughing with CC all day
bout the LOTR.
tootutoootootutooo~

"ahmay alr.."
"ahmay alr,you haven sleep yet?"

"i cant sleep"

"your piles coming up now?!?"

"duno alr!my buttock all turned watery."

"you can anot?need i bring you to hospital?"

"forget it,my buttock no cured alr!!"

"nvm,i got one thing to tell you now"

"you know...you very beautiful.."

"what you say???"

"dulamin told me you're ugly"
"but i think he's BULLSHYT!!"

"why like this???"
"but the person i loved most is..(breath in heavy.)(breath out heavy)..
is dulamin alr."

"fcuk! i saw a ghost!"

we all went LOL.

then we played the amazing shots session.

then ard 6,we went home.
now,i was typing here,wastng my time.
waiting my brother to come out from the bathroom.

hais.
next week is games week.
i afraid we win them.
win over ppl who kb us.
me and wz gg to prove them wrong
making them eat back their words.
plus..we hv my fav.center,raph.
make them go to hospital with ahmay.
LOL.
gg to train my shooting alr.
long time nv train..
nid improvement!
finally get my fav num,#15.
bro,finally get the bleach comic
from vol 1-25
go watch them during my holies.
hais-
went bathe.

mother's day!!

2006-05-14T16:46:00.000+08:00

went to my ahma hse for the celebration of mother's day
saw all my uncles and aunties.
saw my cousins;usally my two small cousin
ranald and jovan
all came and greeted me.
then ate in the livingroom
ate pizza hut,satay,alot alr.
hahs.
then went to the room
playing with my lil'cousin
aaron.
we went act fighting with him.
kana beaten by him,he realli beat me up,lol.
then play my messi's lil'bro's PSP.
play those games make me wants to go back to childhood.
then,i proceed to li=ving room to talk with my uncles.
one busy typing the laptop;career-minded.
one talking with my brothetr bout the FA cup;soccer-crazed.
then i ka siao ka siao invlove into their convesation,cus i know one or two bout soccer.
then bout 9.15
we all went to my hse,watch espn on FA cup live worh.
the match went three three.
all liverpool players went tired,
we made comment on cisse,lol.
in the end liverpool won as they won in the penalty shoot out.

woke up at 12.
went chatting with wendy,
we talk like what sia..
hais.
then now going to my mum's side there family eat eat.
sian1/2
going to meet my cousin thre too.
same height with me even he was one year younger than me
so action. =x
maybe later going to orchard bah.
then tonite revise my science then tml morning revised agn.

heard that someone at CC confront one of my friend
asking of going to cck cup
maybe one day i go check out who is he.
interclass playoff is coming'
i was excited.
excited of losing.
scare of losing to 3F
raph and me going to prove them wrong
making them eat their words.
hais
once tml exam finished
i hv to go back to shen ze
i cant let hanlin disappointed.
long time no see jiu yuan,benedict,prasad,mostly hanlin
so miss him.
lol.

now,brother asking me to close com,going to go my aunt hse celebrating mothers' day.
so hv to obey.
cus he promised me to buy alot of things.
wahaha.

i was hurt once more.

2006-05-13T13:39:00.000+08:00

to the superwoman once i had:
i duno what you thinking now but i know that i hv hurt you lots of times.
being a boyfriend of you for two weeks,we
developed a strong and stabilized love relationship
for each other
remembered that youliked j**,i forgave you and even asked you to forget him
you said you will
thru days,i realli started to forget the guy you reali likes
then..
after one week of steady
you started to comment boys bout their good points
but i ever angry bout that for long
i so love you than to angry bout that
you even said i was petty pig pig,i laughed
we used to share joy together
share burden to each other bout our school life.
i hv a pair of listening ears for my superwoman
every schooling days,i waited for you,i even forgot to play bball while waiting for you
i still remembered that during exams,you seldom talk to me
even you wont talk to me in msn or on phone,i still carry my lil'phone evrypart of my hse to msg bout you or even call you
i realli contented you picked up my calls and talk for me for seconds
everyday,i msg you,you nv reply back to me but i know you noticed them can le.
i realli love you so deeply those days,much like obsession.haha.

remembered that during the time we meet,was at canteen,you came and talk to me and joked bout me,like "what you doing HUH?"lol.i know that time my spelling was abit
lousy,is "alr" to "huh".hahas,maybe you wont get what i said
from then,i started to talk to you,not getting shy anymore.
we getting our relationship closer from mid of sec one to sec two,
that time we still kids eh,ended of sec two,start of holies.
everyone of our school was excited of holidaying speacially our sec two,
can hv our sec three camp at near to sentosa.
we had our joy thre too

i still remember i joked bout you,chicken!
you joked bout me piggie!
haahs,those are unforgotten ones.
during one of the nite
heard from someone that you were sick
need medicine oil to soothe yourself,
luckily i had one.
it was sleeping time,teachers was rushing everyone back to their own respective dorm
everyone was back to dorm then,i risked myself only to passed the medicine oil to one of the girl on your dorm ,asked her to pass to you.
next day,you thanked me,i was happy all day.
i even bullied you then you chase me until faraway from the water cooler
then,the camp ended.
evryone was tired,went home rest,but me,restless.
restless of missing you,cant see you,cant play with you,cant bully you,cant see you fall from the high elements agn.
after the camp,chao,raph and me went to KFC to buy family meal from putting those camping things at home.
fromt then,i keep msging you,cus i was damn missing you then.
i know i was annoying though.

sec three of our life started
you were matured,i wore long pant.
evryone of us hv a strong brain to think of each other,
it was chinese new year eve.
i asked you for steady,i thot would fail
but then you agreed,i could not slp till 5am.
i was the first to woke up at 7am to went visit ppl's house.i slpt two hr onli.
i still remembered you kep msging me bout wad you doing,missing me,planning of going to watch movie.
i was delighted
i used to buy sweet that you liked.

during the time we were steady,we hv joy and also quarrel
we hv quarrel once in a once,we meant good for each other.
during everytime of our quarrel,i dare not to scold you,
i keep asking raph to say good thing bout me.lol.
then you keep forgiving me.
but that time,i felt was least caring you bah.maybe.
so i keep asking you out to walk shopping with me,but you din.
so i went to town with my best buddy,raph.
we went hv eating,like sakae,sakae,sakae plus a soul garden.
then,before we left town,i went buying you one t-shirt.
hoping you wear it out with me.

after two week le.
you asked for break.
i was devastated.
i was oso the time where i joined shen ze.
i went to trng for two times,
scoled by the cosch for not playing well.
wen chang ecen asked me why.
i told him i broke up with you.
he told me not to think too much.

from then,i wasw missing you badly.
and the reson for breaking:
" cant forget j**,sorry."
ppl told me not to hope upon you and say bad points bout you,
i went scolding them back.cus you are my onli superwoman.

i thot we could patch back but..
yoou stead with one of my best buddy.
the one who i play bball with,share the same class with.
my heart was crushed.remembered that you once going to a exbition at suntec,you were hungry and thirsty,so i bought you a bottle of green tea and a packet of hello panda.

but still,i still bear hopes.
buys sweets for you,even you nv asked for.
but one day,i wanted to pass you sweets but you with wei zhong.
i could not pass to you so i gave zoe.
then you not happy agn.
you said me flirt,you said me a liar
why is that those thing i nv hope for comes?
hais-
yes,i am a flirt in your heart,i nvchange.
"a leopard that nv change its spot"
that what you told me.i remembered you asked me not to like winnie,i promised you,but i cried for you,not to with him but you do.hais.

and you now asked me to fck off from you,
okay,i realli do fck off from you in order to please you.
i wont even appeared in your msn anymore.
i promise,i will fck from you de.just forget those memories,okay?

from:dead superman.

after woke up at ten

2006-05-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

my june resolution!!!!!

2006-05-11T15:44:00.001+08:00

this are my june resolutions!
-get my ear pierced
-get in first place in interclass
-dunk during interclass
-get something to acc me go buy knee support
-reach 180cm
-one new pair of bball shoe(new vc flight)
-buy new scandals from heeren
-something from her.
that all.
if any thing wish to add up,post it next time

my june resolution!!!!!

2006-05-11T15:44:00.000+08:00

2006-05-06T20:05:00.000+08:00

totally sick today..
today my korkor,sis,my parent they all went polling,left me alone

i just know one thing in my mind.
forgive and forget
that what applies on her cus she hv her boyfriend
i cannot stay with her anymore.
hais.

a brand new life; ((:

2006-05-05T17:59:00.000+08:00

woke up at five everyday
went school with blackie
met karseng on the way to school
we kept chit-chating til school alr
then went quietly to school morning assembly
then went for my this mid-year chinese paper one
and oso go suan blackie
"why your chinese is basic?"
"OH!!i remember,,NT!.LOL."
haha,seem like i went too far but he asked for it.

after paper one,
i went eating,felt more feverish
but haha,thre someone still care for me uh
then reach 10.25
i proceed to my classrooom
for paper two
quite hard for the first compre

after that,i went home immediate
asking who wanna acc me to queensway plus maybe a visit to the LIN family
but no one wants
so i went to my slumber
woke up by the sickening PAP lorry
"we loves to help the ppl of cck"
"ahhhh!!!just shut up la!"
haha.

now,went to hv my eating then wait for her reply.
xD

2006-05-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

after finishing my social studies paper
i went home immediate after releasing
raph remind me of paying for the public concert ticket
so we both acc by dereck went to the staff room to find ms.toh
after paying her the money
dereck and i went home
i was so tired
went to ly on the bed for half an hour
then waiting for my brother to bring me go queensway
haha..
so excited.
nv see her today,kinda bored
maybe tonite online can see her!
haha..maybe..

2006-05-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

flew raph's kite;
which made me very sad
suppose to accompany him to go play bball
in the end,i told him i not going
stay at home,
do nothing

cooked noodle which bought from taiwan
for my korkor
haha
we play while we eat
throwing fish cake into the soup which made the soup spilled on his stomach
woot!
so unlucky..

but after all
i still sad uh.
maybe i still cant forget her
cant forget what she said to me
"i chose none"
hais-
maybe we fated to be friends after all

without saying,i guess we are fated this way..

that life is about letting go.
it is about coping with losses,
dealing with disappointment
and sadly, living with regrets

that what zoe said to me..
i lived in regrets;letting her go and nv come back agn..
now..coping up with the losses i hv.

WHAT AM I DOING?!?

2006-04-30T20:03:00.000+08:00

it been three month i waited for her
there still no reply from her
hais-
booboo
=(
what should i do?
exams are here,
waiting for me to pass them,
without her,
i cant concentrate
what can i do?
hais-
maybe as well forget her?
i duno..
sad`sad.
today hv to thk zoe,the huang KE AI.
she helped me alot today..
hais-
how then,study.
(",)